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Why I am usually grumpy in the morning
The worst part of my day is the ten minute commute from my apartment to the office.

I'm sure that most 8-5ers share this sentiment, but I don't dislike the drive because of the traffic or the wave of lassitude that won't disappear for at least two hours, but because my neighborhood, instead of sleepy and quiet at almost 8, is a diorama of everything I'll be missing while I'm at work. Women chat over coffee outside of Kaldi's, while others remind me of my blatant laziness as they run by, waving to the guy who owns a short parade of border collies. For some bizarre reason, even kids are out at this hour, kicking around soccer balls and trailing behind stroller-pushing parents.

Sometimes I think about what I would do if I didn't have to be at Cohesion, but even the idea of hokey is depressing. I have no dog to walk, or (thank god) kids to entertain. Sure, I'd take a nice stroll through Forest Park, finish the book I've been reading, and clean my kitchen, but I suppose that my morning routine will remain the same until I have the things that make every weekday seem like a block party I wasn't invited to. In short, I love my life right now, but it's really hard not to look at how comfortable other people are and not want that.